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Name:Jessica
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Monday, March 10, 2014
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playing CNBlue still in love while writing this blog post in the office ~ lady boss came and left early in the morning, the boss, being funny asking us to do weird things as usual~ today is quite a meaningful day at work! did a floor plan that last me all the way till lunch, did editing of a christian song translating it into Malay and trying hard to create and design a elegant pawn store logo :DDD


It was just three days ago, a malaysia airline Boeing 333-200 disappearing in the mid air. well, didnt exactly read and find out more about the news, from what i know, no broken pieces of the airplane found in any country or ocean. my dad came out with a conclusion maybe the plane has actually flew out of the atmosphere zone and became a satellite...

before i slept last night, i suddenly got the idea that maybe the pilot has flew the plane accidently into the parrellel universe door, into another dimension. or, it might be suck into the blackhole, a vaccum space. well, i seriously think entering another dimension is possible (Due to US Drama Fringe:P) its gonna be so so cool!!! i hope they are not suck into the blackhole, cause at the end of the day they will just die there and never come back. at least if its another dimension someone will be able to find a way, a door, to send them back here, or even, stay alive at least at the other side of the world safely.


well, no one knows where the plane is but only the passengers on the plane. if they really manage to come back safely, they can seriously write a book about this whole adventure trip in space! i heard from my dad that actually another plane went missing few years back and its still missing till now~ if any of my family members and friends in ever on that plane and was never send back i think i'm gonna be some scientist to find ways to save them back.

the aftermath of too many Family Guy and Fringe hahahaha!

Baby, I Love You.; 5:12:00 PM


Wednesday, March 5, 2014
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time to update and record about my life..
28 Febuary 2014, our year two last submission, and also our last day of school, all of us will be going to respective companies for our internship 7 weeks. It may sounds short but i already miss my fellow classmates. Also, one of my lecturer is leaving, glad that she is not going back to korea, but im really gonna miss her and her korean accent thanks the photographer of the day for all the images.

im really grateful about the year 2013, though i "lost" a boyfriend and went back to single, but im more closer to the people around me, whether its my secondary friends or my poly friends. im grateful to have you guys around. people may think im foolish, but my world revolve around my friends. i find that our class is more bonded as compare to year one and..  I LOVE IT!!

My first wedding event in my life!!

Rachel, zimin's friend or godsis if necessary, got married on the first day of march because 1314, yup. anw, i dont even know this person in person before i agree to help out as bridesmaid, always hear news and update of people zimin are close to from her (duh~) and yup, they need another bridesmaid to do saikang and i need to understand how to be a bridesmaid for my cousin june wedding.

seriously, its not an easy job la, tired and basically you need to handle all the bullshit from the guest or from the bride. i basically got into a coma during their photoshoot session in the noon till night after the grand wedding. so, i will advice you never to be someone's bridesmaid unless you think you guys are that close and everything is worth it.

Internship~
cant believe that year two has seriously ended and internship is here. after internship, we are known as the year threes. like WOW, someone that looks like a secondary sch kid is already aged 19 and in SP year three! LOL first day of intern was relaxing? we do not have alot of task of complete but the boss here is the firm type of people, so rules have to be strictly followed and lets just hope i can complete my internship with a good grades.

 Shots~
believe it or not, its only the second day of internship im already drinking? Our meetup at Chupitos pub for Melissa 21th birthday. well, i do have to admit that i become more open minded and #YOLO since 2013, i dont have anymore restrictions or anyone feelings to care about, i basically enjoy what i want. of cos, i need people to do what i want with me. and im glad to know this people, my drinking kakies, from min. people who are as easygoing as i do, as crazy and fun. this is like the third or fourth time we actually go out together but we are all showing our trueselves already. we click well on our first date at timber. funny and enjoyable night spend with them everything.

Baby, I Love You.; 2:27:00 PM


Friday, February 28, 2014
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I can no longer understand what I am exactly doing. Maybe avoiding me is really the right choice to do. Its myself who pin my expectation so high that I assume things will be go my way. But im nobody so why will people go my way? I need to learn to let go, to look at a bigger image. I just cant stop thinking about the same old question.

Finally I take the opportunity I made a move, we finally met, and finally we talk about the question has never been brought up and should be a year ago. Though its brough up, no conclusion was made, we set boundaries. Boundaries for each other maybe? It seems like nothing changed but the fact is everything change. The day when we decided to avoid each other we know all this will happen.

We got lesser topic to talk about. When we texts. Awkwardness is present in every single texts. Strange thing is when we meet things are way different. I feel very comfortable around you and I don care what we do as long as im around with you. Maybe you are really good at handling all this, you cover it up nicely perfectly that I don see loopholes. Its when u tell me that u act calming then I realise that I was always blinded.

Baby, I Love You.; 2:10:00 PM


Monday, February 10, 2014
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I just have to write about this. Justt found out that the reason why I no longer see u every wednesday is because you have actually withdrawn from school. I though you were doing fine and doing even better when you're with me, but its seems to turn out the other way. ( lol not trying to say that it will be better when im around.) Somehow I regretted not picking up the courage and say hi to you every Wednesday... Your parents has always been pinning high hopes on you and you withdraw and disappoint them like that, you used to be your lil bro role model, acing study with computer games, going home early. Now? You quit school, you work, you club, step one gangster, you seems to be growing backwards... I really cant help but to tears, someone who I used to look up to, who is such a successful person, now has fallen and walking the worst path a student will ever pick on. Is it still because of gaming? I hope not cos I know gaming is something essential in ur life but no to the extent of turning you bad. Was is because of our breakup? Was it my fault? Did I rrally drove you to your limit? You used to be the one teaching me to love myself. Still remember how you always tell me about your future plans, you wanna complete ur diploma, you wanna be a cop, you want me to go ur house to wake you up, to see me right beside your bed every sunday after you bookout and such... you plan more than I do, u were that awesome in the past.. that charming. Really have the urge to text you to ask you how have you been recently, just as a friend. I swear I have nothing for you anymore but I still feel wasted for you, like how I did for yoke in the past. And I cant help but feel like asking around about you, asking your aunt, your close friends but this is gonna be so so awkward. Yes, I did check you up on insta but all I see is you living under someone shadows, you lost your charm, the you I know is definitely gone. You becoming like those ITE student that I know (no offense im sorry) those who dont give a damn about studies, club all night, finding ways to earn money and waiting for everyday to end and tomorrow to come. Feel really sorry for you. Please get back on your feet soon and be that really cool and charming kaijie I know. Hope NS will teach you how to be a real man. A photo of you from the your charming period (at least to me) when you're my man.

Baby, I Love You.; 1:51:00 AM


Saturday, January 18, 2014
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well, hi, im back again... when i have so much work to do. :/
nothing much happen actually, forever busy with assignment since i got into DID
i don exactly know how to link all the issues together in a post so it may seems weird.

so, lets start from last day of 2013.
its was an indescribable night i must say, went to Silosa party with the westerners, we have fun especially when we are in the foam party!! i ate alot of foam, has trouble opening my eyes when they pour all the bubbles down!@.@ we ultimately head to the main party area beside the beach, DJ Shy as awesome that night, got high jumping and singing all the song out loud. Enjoy myself to the fullest cos i always feel that it seems like a space when i can release myself, be free, from everything. saying happy new year with strangers, giving people hugs, but what really shock me was when ppl ask me for kisses. i mean, sure, why not?:) a peck on ur cheek and even ur lips is fine.. but the guy, he really kinda shock me when he wrap me around and kiss me, not just once, or a second. but, french kisses and he want to continue. yup, i did it, and truthfully speaking, i enjoy that kiss. thanks good looking stranger. :*

Thank you Naung for protecting us girls that night pushing weird guys away.

well, i must say i should be more Conservative, but if there is a second chance to choose, i will actually do the same thing. i cant blame anyone but i need a replacement and stranger seems great as its only gonna be a night, and then, we will never meet.



During the yearly Malaysia trip in 2013, i've improved the relationship between my brother and i, simply because i accepted the facts that he is a man now, and he needs to find a wife, i need to grow up and stop being sheltered. of cos, i made friends with his girlfriends during the Malaysia trip. its not like they are engaged or what, but i see something for their relationship, i believe this one will end well. bless you too :*

Next, a week ago maybe, steph got famous for commenting about Singapore. well, i got kinda tired looking at ppl debating and arguing about what should she and seeing ppl scolding or supporting her, even radio cant stop bring this topic up. please chill everyone, no matter how supportive or disagree with her, Singapore is still the way it is now. one mouth does not change the situation. things in Singapore is the same, everyone has their own perspective, so why force people to feel the same way as you?

Next, its was actually just yesterday, one of our core module assignment result is out, as usual, i got a neutral result, neutral to me at least. someone in our course find out about this thing called "personal bell curve", well, it simply means lecturers grade your work according to you ability and your past projects. it seems fair to a certain extent, cos basically you are fighting with the old you, and, design cannot be compare or graded by anyone. but its also unfair for people who are good at work as its hard for them to surpass their previous good work and the result they get after that will be moderate or even become lower. whereas people who isnt that good at their work, as long as they do slightly better than before, their result also improve visibly. well, im support and disagreeing to this education grading systems, i don't have a solutions for it!!

 
Was clearing my thumb drive yesterday, then i saw this image, cant help but to feel sad, most of the people come and go, both of them is quite close to be during the Sept workshop, but things gone wrong. i sense the girl turning bitching and acting differently in front of guys so i stop telling her my personal things. this guy here, he is an architect, we have quite alot to talk as we both like music, sports, and we are designers. but its seems like we got too close when you start having illusion or love that is above friends, both of us become awkward and stop talking. well, forget it. if i were to approach him again, for sure things will be awkward again.

one last thing, i started to miss all the guys i have flings with. this sounds really bad i know i the reason is because i feel empty. i can bluntly say, finding them back will be able to satisfied me abit. but im controlling myself this days. it is exactly a year ago during Jan Feb when i started unusual relationship with people.. i feel like texting them again, but to be simple friends again, i swear i wouldn't know how to fix the awkwardness. *sigh* so, i lost some guys friends. and becos of this, i recently wanted a dog badly!!!><


Baby, I Love You.; 12:10:00 AM


Friday, December 6, 2013
► just saying, im okay :)
i already lost the passion of writing dairies online..
today i got the feel but i know it wont last so i will online visit my blog when i feel like saying things.

All the things related to you are kept well in a box, i was hurting so much that day when i knife open the box to retrieve my jersey, the emotion rush up instantly when i took out the jersey and smell them, i thought the smell will be gone by then after Yoke has pass to me so long ago.

its been close to 10months since we have separated..
i thought i was okay without you like how i was before Prom..
i'm still as active, still as childish, still smiling..
but i didn't know your scent would cause me to break down,
i used to love seeing you in my volleyball jersey, you look so good in my jersey, and i guess i still do..
i used to lie so close next to you, on my bed, in your arms. your scent, i still remember them, once my favorite smell..

how i wish you were dead when you are still loving me like how corey is dead.
how i wish you were a badass who has an affair with another woman and left me.
how i wish you have family issues that you have to leave me.
but no, its all wishes. love has already gone, forever.


i really wish that i would get into a accident, losing memories of the past 1year10months memories or even better, all the unhappiness. sometimes i really wish i was like my friends, who is so cheerful, so happy go lucky, so naive and gullible so i wont over think, i can then always be okay.. :)

Baby, I Love You.; 5:01:00 PM


Thursday, February 14, 2013
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finally finish my work!!!! :D at 3:33am! hahhaa! whattt~
now I'm slightly more free, but, still got HTI journal to write @.@ 4 more i think x(

ikr! today is valentine, actually i forget, until my mum ask me the day before.. too busy with assignment :(
not going to spend it alone though, Cos im going to meet min and walk walk!

currently tonight I'm kinda angry with this boyfriend of mine, its only the starting of 2013 and he already put me airplane thrice. who do u think u are? you think is fun? lol. some more this time round is not suddenly pop up event, is a well plan exam by our dear sch SP, with time and venue on a timetable which is posted on Blackboard, someone is just too lazy to check early. already told him to check and update me two weeks ago then ask me out, then wts, happily plan to go out this Thurs, which is today, valentine, he ytd at my frantic moment tell me got paper worh.

angry not totally becos he did it again, but partially bcos THIS CAN BE PREVENT. u like to fly airplane so much don need be police la, be pilot lo, the uniform i like also. lol

so speechless, so tired and not wanted to scold or pick up a fight with him so i sent him a neutral k. if u know, its nv neutral. im already dying due to the last min rushing assignment still need to fan such thing. it already not the first time he make me expect and break the promise that makes me fall hard on the ground. every time quarrel say will change, will minimise, will pei me more, will try but its only that few days after quarrel, after that then happily go back to square one.

CNY nv pei me, Valentine nv pei me, still got one more i forget== if not zimin ask me to jio him out for ABTM2 i also don intend to meet him since to him his family, his freedom is so importance. the most angry thing is he nv reply min, wah sibei guailan, people trying to help then he ignore, i stand outside cinema msg ask wont reply also, make me wait for like 10min? then need me personally call over.

no la, all my fault la see, above is all my complain and whining, this lead to problems, make him stress up, cannot cope, then throw one side, then im expected to solve it and start convo again. yea lo, see le no happy, go find ur fren see lo, then they will give u good ideas to end with me, hah, whatever, if that is really the case i also give up liao, had enough of broken promise. and its always so coincidence, always when i have study stress then prob arise, cannot pick timing when i don have much things to do and have hell lot of time to play with u.

see my fren they all even though same thing as me cannot meet bf at least they can type wat "this guys make my everyday like valentine" i can only envy lo. and his fren can type wat " Don't make 14/2 a special day to love, show it daily to the ones you love." a logic his fren know but nv teach him and yet give him all kind of bullshit idea etc. lol. i donno got anot la, thats my assumption.

ask for more then he complain i request alot. even my bro also buey tahan say need teach him some basics. and i didnt even tell my bro a single shit he did to me. watever, wait for hols lo wat can i do?! force him uh?! later he stressed up i need to settle shits again.


AHHHH buey tank liao uh! tml 9am submission, left, 3hr plus to slp~ D: going to bed NOW!!!!!!! bye! :D

Baby, I Love You.; 4:02:00 AM


Tuesday, December 25, 2012
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here's a post for my current holidays! :) well, its a 3 week holiday but i almost 2 week in Malaysia, first week to Malacca for sch assignment trip, second week to Penang and KL with family for leisure :)
trip to Malacca is enjoyable but yet tiring! we visit lots of different historical place, sketch a lot, slp late but still we have fun! i donno why but submission always make my heart beat like there is no tomorrow! i always ask myself if i really did submit everything that i need to submit or did i forget something during submission!>< crazy shit, make me panic all the time.
i was kinda hurt by what one of my lecturer said to me, frankly speaking, im not good at drawing, and also not a pro in designing, im trying hard, maybe not hard enough, her words make me doubt myself even more if i should change course and also if i have the ability to take the challenge face in this course. until now, when i see how, the same thing will come to my mind...



Trip to malaysia with family was great! this is the first time i visit Penang, i love the hotel that we stayed!! great sea view and and all the delicious Malaysia food right beside us! visited george town and kek lok si! all i can say Penang is just amazing, pretty view, good food, cheap stuff everywhere, all the old building is so magnificent, its like, woah its still standing there, but look at all the newly build buildings, all need bring down or renovate~ lol. KL trip is quite similar every year, stay at relative house, go out to sungei wang, sunway pyramid walk walk shop shop, go visit dental etc. always felt so heart broken when i see my grandma, like she is okay but not okay~ Yipo is like forever the best! around the age of my grandma but she is super strong and fit! cook alot of awesome food, after food we have cute kitties to play with !! all i wish for was just her to be forever healthy and nv ever get sick, and ya one more thing! smoke and drink lesser!!


this is the third and last week of my term break! gosh, starting school again, cant help feeling stress, how i wish i have a tiny little bit of talent to help me with my poly years.... sigh.. OHYA! today is chirstmas!!! i spend my Christmas eve with my secondary sch mates and also my baby! finally get to see him after 2-3 weeks! yesterday is a joyful one! i also meet up with the Koh family a day before! had tiny slice of log cake both days, tiny still fattening! rawr!!!

nonetheless, i wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!! i love you guys, thanks for wandering around me this year and taking care of me! please stay with me till next year christmas, next next year christmas and next next next next next christmas!! heehee~ <3>

Baby, I Love You.; 3:53:00 PM